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oh..wat am i doing now?? stil left 8days only b4 my first final paper..CNS..+++ u hv 9subjec to sit for..plz…wat r u doing..tis whole day ady gone..study only immuno 2notes-hypersensitivity..pile of notes in front..like the mountain..plz..n sori me..sori…the inner voice cn u plz leave me.. It kept on bothering me today..it kept on talk to my heart..plz..it made my heart tired n crying ady..her heart ws crying..plz..cn u tolerate n let her rest for today..jz one more day.. she ws sad..bt then she dun wana find any ppl or fens to talk to..she fear that she ws really disturbing..now her house dun hv any ppl.. hv a gud reason to close herself up..plz forgiv me..plz…

Cn u plz stop bothering me, inner voice?? u fight against my good study mood dvpl 3days ago..

“ya..i knew..recently my family n aroun were caught with so much problem..even i could not imagine for that.. The one tat i ws worrying the most.. my grandma condition ws getting worst..haiz..soon to leave us..if this nightmare come during my final exam paper,how am i going to face it?? give up my paper?? perhaps..apply to resit..or?? plz calm down n dun sad…

n..another case..izit am i going to make this forever regretful decision for the sake of my family..happened last month..alto recently condition ws improved..bt so frightening if mum took that decision..heart ws distorted by that ady…somemore,the case happened to biao jie..her bf ws revenged n…the feeling that drove me mad n crazy recently..n…”

plz..inner voice..stop talking all these to me anymore…my heart ws crying n tired..plz..n sori..sori for myself..

May God bless me…

She never thought that she would face this someday.. How desperate n hurt she was when she knew that ?? How unbelieveable it was?? How n how?? why n why?? She could choose not to bother about it.. but if she really doing so… every preety nest would ruin in that moment.. she was the only one that could save it.. SAVE IT… SAVE IT..

She ws desperate ady.. No one knew that.. She could even break the untold secret… but she found it hard to do it..

With determination..only she could help it out..

May God bless her….

56 岁 的 二 伯 在 幸 福 满 满 的 昨 天 结 婚 了..Hehee… 很 高 兴… 这 也 是 婆 婆 一 直 以 来 的 心 愿..

 回 想 起 以 前 我 和 婆 婆 住 在 一 起 时, 二 伯 时 常 带 我 和 哥 哥, 茵 表 姐 和 森 堂  姐 去shopping  和  游 乐 场 等.. 还 不 时 买 了 很 多  可 爱 的 洋 娃 娃 送 我 呢… 大 大 小 小 天 真 无 邪 的… 光 阴 似 箭,  一 说 就 十 年 了, 如 今 我 们 四 个 都  二 十 岁 出 头  了, 个 自 有 自 己 的 生 活 和 理 想.. 很 怀 念 与 回 味… 那 童 年 的 时 光…

 二 伯 对 我 们 的 爱 护 与 关 怀… 可 说 是 无 可 取 代 ooo…  多 年 前 二 伯 被  他 的 新 加 坡 女 友 骗 财 了..所 有 的 钱 财 都 被 骗 光 光 了..得 悉 后 令 我 们 伤 心 难 过 不 己..二 伯 也 变  得  失 去 了 自 己..那 份 爱 与 痛…难 以 形 容.. 过 后 他 就 回 来 了 大 马, 帮 忙 大 姑 照 顾 孙 女 儿 子..前 年, 当 他 在 接 等 小 孩 时, 不幸 地 被 打 劫, 劫 匪 刺 伤 了 他, 把 他 推 倒 在 水 沟 去..幸 好 有 个 好 心 的 路 人 目 睹 了 就 马 上 送 他 到 医 院 去 急 救…感 谢 上 天..二 伯 度 过 了 这 个 难 关…

吃 得 苦 中苦, 方 为 人 上 人..虽 然 是 迟 来 的 爱, 但 我 们 都 为 二 伯 要  结 婚 这 一 事 感 到 十 分 的 高 兴..再 说, 难 得 这 一 次 我 在 放 假… heheee…可 以 帮 忙 帮 忙…准 备 的 时 间 虽 短, 但 是 在 兄弟 姐 妹 的 帮 忙 下…婚 礼 也 能 顺 如 流 水 如 期 进 行…酒 席 昨 晚 在 金 宝 宴 宾 酒 楼 圆 满 结 束..  

这 两 天…我 们 大 大 小 小 都 聚 集 在 婆 婆 的 家..邻 居 和 亲 友 也 陆 陆 续 续 地 到 来 祝 贺..很 热 闹..很 温 馨…那 份 融 恰 感 深 深 地 飘 入 我 的 心 坎…直 到 昨 晚 那 一 刻, 当 摄 影 师 说 跟 我 们 再 拍 几 张 全 家 幅 合 照, 再 叫 我 们 挥 挥 手 say goodbye 时, 这 时, 我 感 到 很 感 动 很 感 动…眼 里 也 乏 了 几 滴 泪 水.. 

我 时 常 都 抱 着 知 足 常 乐 的 心 态…因 为 能 成 为 这 个 大 家 庭 的 一 分 子… 感 谢 上 天.. 感 谢 我 身 边 的 每 一 个 人…

再 过 几 天 我 的 假 期 也 完 毕 了…大 学 也 快 要 开 课 了…虽 然 很 不 舍 得 我 的 家 人…但 每 天 虚 度 时 光 对 自 己 也 不 太 好…New semester, new spirits.. hehee…^_^

This blog had been left behind for quite a number of times..so sorry..as many ppl nowadays pay more attention on facebook…but today I was back here to leave a few words…

Our present society…haizzz…….Nowadyas,there are still many people around us look down on the people who is not well- educated. And they simply called them “ben”, stupid fool n other name that I think which might hurt the person when the person do something wrong.. Actually, today I found out this people who worked in my daddy’s shop..He appeared big in size and when did job, performed quite clumsily..When other looked at him, they would call him “da fei chun”…Today I observed that he really performed quite badly when doing things..but I could see that he had put effort on it…n another skilled worker in my daddy’s shop, kept on blaming him stupid and useless… How hurt he was..n he admitted that he was stupid in front of many of us before…although his family members said so before he taking up this job in my daddy’s shop..

Later on, my tuition teacher who had taught me before during my primary school years came and bought thing in the shop..Then, he chatted with my grandma.. Dun know why, i felt so dissappointed that when he blamed the one who do not study well.. He kept on talking how good a person can be when he/she was well-educated and how bad it might be when gave up his/her study journey..Oh no?? I didnt expect that this type of topic to be discussed by a teacher..

I felt so surprised that this teacher whom I was familiar with  before turned out to be strange to me today.. He even blamed me, saying that if I was not well-educated as right now, maybe I might be the “samseng” gang..Whenever he met me, he always praised me like no other was comparable..???But then, he was interested in  stressing on  a well-educated person could only succeed..

Anyway, i was not frustrated with my teacher..But I wondered, why do our society continue to look down on those who were not well-educated or the person who appeared clumsy.. not only today that I heard about it, but for quite a long time ago.. In their dictionary, well-aducated mean could obtain a place in university and score flying colours  in the exam.. How about others? Life was not just exam and result, smart n intelligent people n…..

Why? Why do we keep on looking down on them..They felt shameful, guilty whenever doing things wrong..Why dont we help them? Give them a chance.. Dont you think that our society was becoming incresingly realistic? How hurt is it  when this group of people when working hard to strive for better and yet their effort was not appreciated…

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Today was my last class for the course Eng for professional writing-GTEE1103.. hehheee…A bit bu se de the lec- Miss Steffi.. She is preety, knowledgable, nice, n….Her “KISS” concept in teaching- keep it short and simple, made the class not dull at all…

Surprisingly, she held  an “Award Presentation” for our last class today… Hehee…What was she going to do?? Hahaa… She presented each one of us, since only 14 of us took this compulsary course for this sem, a nice hand made paper plate…but it was very great for me already… Each one of us had been given the award based on her observation when she conducted the class..

At first, when she gave clue to us– “She/he is a colour lover………” hehee, immediately, all of my coursemates, the first person to come to their mind, was me…hahaa… Never thought it before my “Colour” impressed them so much… hehee… I got that “SMILE INDICATOR” award… The story behind ws…Hehee….Anyway, i was touch of it..Although the gift was just a paper plate etched on it my name and the awarded honour, it was full of art..Thank, Miss Steffi..

Other awards like “Steady tai go”, “Valentine day dreamer”, “logo lover”, ” Miss vey lenglui”, ” Steady smiling” n many other funny yet true award ws given to other… The most meaningful things for me was that on top of the plate,  there was a paper attached.. Everyone of us will have theirs…

This is the one I received-” When you reach the heart of life, you shall find beauty in all things.” by Kahlil Gibran.. Right.. i love that quotation much…

Short to say, i really enjoyed the whole class..And thx for you guys-my coursemates in this course with me… We really hv an enjoyable session…hahaa… Rmbr to keep in touch with us in the facebook there,Miss Stef..

~9days left before my 1st final paper~~ Baxia n all the BEST…^_^

Waw,tommorow will be my department day,Pharmily day…Feeling quite excited for it…Bt today,i felt a bit tired ady,cz the whole day, more than 12hrs committed myself in the sketch practice n rehearsal..

It seemed that we were really talented in “acting”…Hahaa….Funny,amusable, silly,serious,n ….Practice for 2times only, bt the show is considerably good…all the song chosing n sound effect as well as background pic were finished editting in time today….Relieved for it…Huhuuuu…….

Hopefully, tomorrow all will be going smooth n cn give a good performance for the audience….Jz “SS” on the stage…i’m sure v r the best ady…Hahaa…n 3RD yr seniors,the organizer, although 2dy seemed like somethings were stil nt in the right track,bt i ws sure tomorrow all will be perfect…i ws impressed by the opening ceremony, urs “feng che” with light n the registration board-the BIG LOVE…

Gd luck n all the best in our indoor n outdoor games…^_^

 还 有 几 天，08′ 年 就 要 过 去 了. 很 快 的， 又 要 回 到 大 学 那 儿 上 课 了… 回 到 熟 悉 的 seminar room, 回 到 繁 忙 的 PJ  生 活， 看 见 拥  济 的 人 群，n…… 其 实 还 真 的 很 不 舍 得 呢… 虽 然 这 个 假 期 还 有 点 忙…

 这 个 假 期， 因 为 爸 爸 的 店 有 点  重 要 事 情， 所 以 大 部 分 的 时  间 都 是 在 帮 忙,  尤 其 是 检 查 那 一 页 又 一 页 的 单 本， 真 的 很  考 耐 心 和 精 神 呢… 很 希 望 那  遗 失 了 的 单 簿 能 找 回… 很 高 兴 这 次 陪 妈 到 外 旅 行….  我 真 的 很 高 兴 很 高 兴…  第 一 次  体 验 寒 冷 的 天 气.. 第 一 次…n…有 很 多 很 多 我 很 想 和 大 家 分 享  的 事 和 心 情， 但 因 为 太 多  了， 也 不 知 从 那 说 起， 所 以 也 只 能 说 sorry…  总 之 就 是 棒 哦…

虽 然 在 团 里 有 点 误 会 或 什 么 搞 不 清 使 到 大 家 意 见 不 合 而 产 生  冲 突 的 事， 但 是 希 望 他 们 不 要 太 过 计 较， 伤 了 友 情 就 也  不  太 好  了…   或 许 人 与 人  之 间  的 关 系， 还 真 的 蛮 复 杂 的.. 至 于 喜 欢 把 事 情 简 单 化 的 我， 希 望 他 们 快 快 乐 乐 lo… 唯 一 遗  憾 的 就 是 我 没 有 买 下 一 见 中 情 的 那 条 水 晶 手 链…   可 能 已 没 有 机 会 再 遇 见 它 了…

 回 想 起 这 一 年， 好  像 很 多 事 发 生 了…  喜, 怒, 哀, 乐.. 我 知 道…自 己 很 害 怕, 很  胆 小,  心 灵 很 脆弱…Hahaa…  看 来 上 次  做 的 那 个 心 里 测  验  还 真 的 准 ooo… 前 两 天, 收 到 一 张 Christmas card, 真 的 很 惊 喜, 原 来 是matric  的 一 位 好 友 (blockmate)寄 来 的…  这 是 我 20 年 来 收 到 的  第 三 份 christmas  礼 物… 谢 谢 你… 我 很 感 动…

 新 的 一 年 里,  希 望  我  亲 爱 的 家 人 和 朋 友 们 都  身 体 健 康,  如 愿 以 尝,  快 快 乐 乐…^_^ ~~BAXIA~~

Finally, i safely reached my home…Thanks God…That day, 21th of November, 3pm,i went through another bad experience in Pudu bus station..

Waww, that evening, once i stepped into the bus station..I was quite surprised…Extreme crowded,noisy, people pushing here n there n… As usual, i made my way to the counter n bought ticket.. N remembered that the school holidays were started ady,somemore that day was friday, no wonder the environment around was that “hot”…. 

Oh…my goodness, all the ticket to my hometown hd been sold off, the only one that left was at 8pm…Therefore, i searched around n asking for another company…Suddenly, this guy appeared in front of me, from the Superia company..selling ticket, route- “Bidor, Kampar, Ipoh”..4.30pm..Hehee, feeling quite great at that time..That one was the extra bus made.. Bt the ticket price was double…I pondered for a while there, making decision.. At the end, i decided to take it as no more tickets left except that one was at 8pm..i thought it was quite dangerous for me to wait alone till 8pm in pudu  there..

4.30pm…hahaa..feeling great, waiting for the bus to come.. Bt the agent suddenly appeared, collecting all the tickets from us, i was quite surprised too..aroun 50++ of us would board the same bus… Isnt it allowable? Many question marks started to cross my mind… Anyway, i just follow the gang.. Then the agent asked us to walk to another place.. It takes us about 15mins++ to reach that place to get into the bus..

As we reached there, all of us rushed into the bus, pushed here n there, quite dangerous.. However, there were 14 of us who failed to get into the bus.. Therefore, we were asked to join another bus.. yes, we hd no choice.. hd to follow as our tickets were being collected ady..Seemed like a bit “being cheated” ady… Ohh no, the bus was actually made its way to Butterworth, how come the one, me, the only one in the gang, dropped in Kampar ?? Then, the 14 of us were scolded by another agent, “Kamu ni sangat berani, tak ada tiket naik bus!! Turun !!”

Seemed like we were being cheated..I started to frighten that time..as i was not sure where was place that we were being brought to n… Then, some passengers were angry…hd to pay double, bt the service we got sound like that… they complained.. Shouting n yelling at the agent.. Ohhh… quarrelling… not only the agent n the customers, but among agents, they quarrelled as well… I was so frightened that time.. Oppss.. one of the agent was hurted.. His mouth was being hit to bleed… N the condition was…

That time, my eyes filled with one drop of tear..I told myself, dont afraid..it was life… I had to face it…although really frightened by the condition.. n alone.. calling brother also no use, he didnt know how to save me… i noticed another malay girl, crying there…saying that she hd an urgent case, her father ws admitted to the hospital, now was in hurry to rush for home.. n found out that she would back to my hometown as wel… Looking at her tears, i felt very compassionate… i reassured her n asked her to follow me… trust me n believed me.. Waww, how dare i was.. although i was quite blur too…

Later on, we were asked to join another bus… no matter how, i determined not to get into the bus anymore… …. … … one guy came, claimed the money, for his girl n for us.. He was quite fierce.. N we successfully get our money… Without any delay, i brought the malay girl back to pudu bus station to take another bus in the hope that there was another bus for us… although i knew that i was blur, nt sure about the route aroud, bt i decided to take risk, trust myself…

Luckily n at the end, we reached the station again n there was really another bus waiting for us… Thanks God… at 6.30pm… I really felt reliev n reliev that time… Huuuuu….however, my left n right knee cap, n left arm were injured accidentally by one of the passengers..  ~>…

Jz now when i called my mum, “sorry,the person you called are not available, plz try again later..” N rmbr that today mum’l go for the sponsored trip… Emm… Quite missed her n i ws late to call her ady..Recently she ws busy…I really  missed her so much suddenly…mayb feeling a bit lonely jz nw…Hope to hear from her soon…mum…

~~Gambateh lo~~ Jangan “fikiran melayang”..Hahaa.. Melayang a bit is ok… Dont go too far…Hahhaa… Mum will call you soon, theng theng..

Exam  month…Another two more papers for me to go..Today, my pharmaceutical organic chemistry was over le..Hohooo…

After the exam, i joined my biomed friends who hd a birthday celebration for meimei..Hahaa, seemed like she was really surprised that although her birthday ws over ady,last last tuesday, but we still remembered to celebrate with her.. N so great, today i hd exam, n at the same time, they hd their exam as wel, so… after the exam, we celebrated in 6th college mamak there… meimei, we hope u like it, although we jz bought you a small piece of cake, bt i thought it ws unusually sweet in taste in ur heart..Hahaa…N the wallet we presented to you…The story behind when my shebaobei n ling baobei bought it las week…Luckily it was a misunderstood case..

Actually, i was feeling great ady to be have chance to have lunch with urs again..Full of topics n close chatting…n one more things that amused me the most, was chong long’s hair…When you showed us ur  own cut front part, we  really  couldnt stop laughing at it..Rmbr u r 001,they alwys praised u de…Hahaa…Gambateh n gd luck for ur coming paper..Miss urs…Hehee…

After that, we went to visit one of the lecturer, Dc Naraisah.. When we heard that your spinal cord was mislocated until it pushed a backside pain to ur stomach, n las few days, u were admitted to hospital ady, we felt pity for you..N ur hip bones were mislocated as well now..She  felt  so so  graet when looked at all  of  us came  to  her  office  n  visited  her.. In  fact, it ws the smallest smallest concern  that  we could give only..~~We  really  hope  that  you  can  recover  soon~~All  the BEST…

I thought nex time in my course, i wont  hv  chance to be taught by u ady..You  are  alwys the one that v admire, because you alwys  voiced out all  the  unfair things  during  my  biomed  course  last time..N now, you  stil  very  sayang, miss n  love  us…  We  sincerely  to  pray n  hope the best for you.. ~~